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  “I need to go,” she whispered, hearing the shakiness in her voice, feeling that trapped, smothering sensation that sometimes surrounded her. “Please. I just need some time…”

  He laid two fingers against her lips. “I came to your room to wish you farewell, sweetheart, not to argue with you or attempt to change your mind,” he told her softly. “But running isn’t going to help. I know you, and we both know that’s what you’re doing.”

  “I need to rest.” She was so tired. Summer could feel the weariness building inside her. She’d never imagined the past was as broken as it had been, and that those she’d been so loyal to could have betrayed her and those she cared about so easily.

  She’d always known the world wasn’t what others perceived it to be, but to learn it was even worse than that had shaken her to her core.

  “Rest then.” His hand cupped her cheek, his lips whispering across hers. “I’ll wait for you. For a while. But don’t forget to return Summer, or I’ll come looking for you.” His expression hardened then. “And you don’t want me to come looking for you.”

  She had a feeling that it wouldn’t matter.

  As he left the room she stared at the clothes laid out, those waiting, and she just didn’t have the energy or the patience to deal with packing. Her car had arrived earlier, and was waiting out front. All she really needed was her go bag and the small suitcase she always kept packed for emergencies.

  Grabbing both, she then picked up her purse and left the bedroom without a backward glance before slipping from the house. She didn’t tell Davis Allen good-bye, and she’d already talked to Alyssa that morning. There was nothing left to do but …

  Run.

  * * *

  Raeg watched the little black cherry Ferrari leave the estate from where he stood at the window of the senator’s office and tried to tell himself it was for the best. Just as he tried to tell himself she’d be back. He knew he was lying to himself on both fronts.

  The feeling that Summer was finished with her life in DC left a heaviness in his chest he couldn’t ignore, and hunger eating at his gut.

  He could still taste her against his lips and he still ached for more of her. Ached in ways no other woman had ever made him ache. And that made her dangerous. It ensured that above all other women, this one was denied him. He couldn’t allow himself to care, to allow his guard to slip, especially with a woman who had once been part of the CIA. An agent. A woman who would be perceived as the enemy. He didn’t dare endanger his own soul in such a way again. He couldn’t allow Falcon to do so, if there was a way to stop it.

  Letting her go wasn’t easy though.

  The scent of her still lingered in his senses, the warmth of her body was a ghostly weight teasing against his chest, teasing his memory, testing his resolve. He had a feeling that forgetting those stolen moments in her suite would be impossible and he wasn’t even certain if he wanted to forget.

  He’d had a taste of the forbidden though, and now, he couldn’t help but ache for more.

  Chapter

  ONE

  FIVE MONTHS LATER

  Well now, it would appear he owed his brother a sizeable payout on the bet they had, Falcon thought in disgust.

  How the hell had she managed to fool him so easily?

  The last time he’d seen Summer Bartlett, aka Summer Calhoun, she’d been lying sobbing in a bed in her brother’s home in DC, long black strands of hair lying around her, her hair a neat little cap of jagged cuts no more than two or three inches long. All those long soft curls had been gone and he’d felt like a part of his heart had been cut from his chest.

  He’d stomped out of the bedroom after warning her to get ready for an upcoming mission, so pissed that she’d cut her hair that he could barely stand to breathe, and it had been a damned ruse, nothing more. A trick. A carefully staged gimmick guaranteed to make him mad enough to stay away from her, for a while at least, when she slipped away again.

  A month later there she stood on the balcony of a beach house she’d been staying in, nearly waist-length waves of raven black hair blowing in the ocean breeze, her slender, petite body clad only in a short nightie, allowing that breeze to caress tanned flesh as she tipped her head back in sensual enjoyment.

  And she had him so damned hard it was all he could do to breathe.

  “I warned you,” his brother, Raeg snorted behind him. “Summer wouldn’t cut her hair. She gets off far too easily on having you brush and braid it for her.”

  He slid a look to his brother, his jaw tightening at the scathing tone of voice. There were moments he wondered what had made him believe Raeg would be the best partner for this job. Perhaps he’d made a mistake in giving his brother first choice in accompanying him to inform Summer of the coming danger and protecting her from it. There had been other options. Options that would not have been so critical of the agent Summer had been, or the woman she was.

  Was he wrong, he wondered, to believe Raeg’s manner toward her held more than it appeared to on the surface? That the sensual enjoyment it seemed Raeg had found in Summer in DC was only in his own imagination?

  Hell if he knew anymore.

  “I didn’t ask your opinion on her reasons why, they are obvious,” he assured his half brother. “Searching for a woman with short black hair, made finding her more problematic if I continued searching for her. She would have known this.”

  “The point is, she ran, Falcon,” Raeg pointed out, quite confident he knew Summer well enough to understand motivations that Falcon doubted even Summer understood. “If she gave a damn either way about how her abrupt absence affected you or anyone else, then she would have stuck around long enough to explain it.”

  Yes, she had run. Just as he had known at the time that she would do.

  Evidently, Summer was serious about getting out of the covert and security work she’d been a part of for so long. Just as she was serious about refusing to return to the political social center that was DC.

  But Raeg was wrong, she had attempted several times to tell him she wanted out, and Falcon had been so loath to lose her that he’d talked her into staying instead. That was a mistake he should have never allowed himself to make. A mistake he would not make again.

  I’m so tired, Falcon, the note she had left at the house in DC stated. Tired of being shot at, tired of shooting at others, and tired of learning that friends were enemies and tried and true enemies could be friends.

  Belle was being retired forever.

  And could he truly blame her? In the space of only a few years, she had lost so much. The woman who had helped shape her as an agent and as a person had died unexpectedly, and she’d been forced to kill someone she had believed was a friend for most of her life.

  To save him.

  She had taken that life to save him, because he hadn’t believed the woman would actually attempt to pull the trigger.

  “I would be dead were it not for her,” he reminded his brother softly. “She pulled the trigger when I could not, Raeg.”

  He’d kept his weapon holstered rather than pulling it and being prepared for what may happen.

  Raeg said nothing. Instead, he lifted the water bottle to his lips and sipped as they stared at the vision still standing on the balcony, the sun’s rays caressing her from head to toe, loving the breeze even as it loved her.

  “I didn’t say she didn’t have her good points,” Raeg finally stated with no small amount of ire. “I said she fooled you. You let her fool you.”

  Falcon pushed his fingers through his hair wearily, glancing at his brother and wondering if he could ever convince him that the reasons he fought so hard to find fault with Summer wasn’t because she had the faults he wanted to see. Summer made Raeg see what he refused to acknowledge in himself. A man who hungered for a woman so much that he could not refuse who he was, what he was, if he was to have her. A man who knew that, even though he would have to walk away from her in the end, having her would be worth the agony of releasing
her later.

  If they could release her, Falcon thought, something he rarely allowed himself to consider because he knew too they’d have no choice but to let her go far too soon.

  When Summer finally turned and reentered the house, Falcon hid his disappointment and continued to watch the area. Tonight, they’d sneak into the house and he’d have to tell her why he had chased her so relentlessly over the past month. She was running out of time and had no idea of the danger building with each day that she stayed out of sight. If he didn’t tell her quickly, the consequences could prove disastrous.

  “We will go in tonight,” he told Raeg, hating the fact that what he would tell her would shatter any security she may have found in the past six months since leaving DC.

  She was serious about getting out, he could see that now. He even accepted it, and after the past month of considering all the reasons why she would want out, he couldn’t blame her.

  She was a hell of an agent, but she was also a woman, and women did not see the world in the same terms, with the same logical choices that men saw it in. For a woman, friendships meant far more than they meant for a man in some ways. The rules were different in their hearts and taking the life of one she considered a friend would have altered everything she felt about the life she was living.

  “You’re not being logical about her, Falcon,” Raeg advised. But Falcon heard the regret his brother tried to hide in his voice. “You know what you’re risking. What both of us are risking.”

  The bleak lessons of the past couldn’t be forgotten.

  “Should I just allow Dragovich to kill her then?” Falcon turned to his brother, watching him curiously. “He nearly did in Russia. That was my fault because I all but begged her to take the job. Because of that, she was betrayed by Gia, her identity sold to the bastard and now he intends to finish the job.” He couldn’t even consider not protecting her, watching over her, after the many times she’d saved his life. But he understood Raeg’s concern as well. “Why do you not go back to DC? I’ll inform her of the problem and call Lucien Connor to come out and help me with this. She knows him, she works well with him.”

  Oh, he just bet she did, Raeg thought furiously, forcing back his anger at his brother’s offer. She might get along fine with Lucien Conner, and that was all well and good, except for the fact that Lucien wanted nothing more than to get Summer into his bed.

  “Why don’t you just stop with the demands that I return to DC,” Raeg snorted, “and stop making excuses for her.”

  “When you stop making excuses for yourself,” Falcon stated with such disgust that Raeg could feel his frustration level rising. “For pity’s sake, Raeg, protecting her from this will not endanger her from our enemy. Keeping her, loving her would. This will not.”

  Raeg couldn’t convince himself of that, no matter how often he tried. He knew far better than Falcon the cost of forgetting the legacy that haunted them. He’d known a taste of that hell once already. He didn’t want to revisit it. Especially not for a woman who affected him more than any other woman ever had.

  And maybe that was part of it. She made him ache like nothing or no one ever had. She tugged at a part of him he hadn’t known existed and made him admit to things he had never known he wanted, and all the while she’d bat those perfect, heavy black lashes of hers, smile with such feminine charm as those oddly colored violet eyes gleamed with seductive promise, right before informing him of what a prick she considered him. She could tear a strip off his hide in a voice so perfectly beautiful it made his dick harder than hell despite the insults she’d heap on him.

  The fact that she was usually right, didn’t count as far as he was concerned. He’d say he was a prick because she couldn’t decide if she was a black-hearted agent or a sweet Cinderella wannabe, and he couldn’t decide if he should make up her mind for her. The truth was, being a prick was the only way to keep her at arm’s length.

  “You still refuse to even discuss this,” Falcon accused him, his voice low, his gaze still on the beach house. “Do you believe you’ll be able to live in the same house with her and not eventually give into your needs? To what we both need? That, or you will make her hate you?”

  Raeg didn’t even deign to answer that question. He wouldn’t touch it until he simply had no other choice and he damned sure wasn’t going to listen to his brother lecture him on it.

  “I think we should go in now.” Placing his empty water bottle on the console of the vehicle they were sitting in, he narrowed his eyes on the house again. “She’ll run again before nightfall.”

  “And you know this how?” Falcon bit out, frustration edging at his voice.

  “She was on the balcony, full view for all the world, playing the lazy socialite,” he pointed out. “We’ve been watching this damned place for two days, and you couldn’t even tell anyone was there. It was a distraction. Any reasonable attempt to get to her would come after dark and she knows it. She intends to be long gone before that could happen, laughing her ass off because she fooled us again.”

  He knew her better than Falcon gave him credit.

  His brother was silent, thoughtful. The explanation had at least gotten his brother off his back though, Raeg thought in relief. He didn’t want to think about what he was going to do once they told her what was coming, who was coming. And he didn’t want to consider the consequences of the only plan they’d been able to come up with to ensure she didn’t end up dead.

  Summer was a hell of an agent and he fully admitted that, but she wasn’t Wonder Woman and she wasn’t bullet resistant. And the enemy wanted to make a point, hence the reason a sniper hadn’t been dispatched to just pick her off.

  “We should go in now then,” Falcon said softly, anticipation rumbling just below the soft tone of his voice as he started the Suburban and put it in gear. “She runs again, and we may not find her until she is but a corpse. If then.”

  That was a probability, Raeg thought, pushing back the arousal and the anticipation he couldn’t help but feel.

  It had been five months since he’d seen her. In the past eight years, five months had never passed that he hadn’t seen her, argued with her, touched her, even if it was in the most impersonal way. She always seemed to bring the sunshine with her, he thought wearily. What was it Falcon called her sometimes? Summer-shine. That was what it was like, feeling the warmth of that season when she was around, whether she was charming them to distraction or driving Raeg insane with the sugary little jabs.

  And Summer was like a drug. Didn’t matter if it was the argument or merely seeing her now, her physical presence lit up a room with her smile and her bright violet eyes. It was still a fix, and he hadn’t had his in far too long.

  “Fuck this up, Raeg, and you and I will have words.” Falcon surprised him, not just with the warning, but also with the fact that he was dead serious. “Do not antagonize her to the point that she refuses to allow us to watch her back.”

  Raeg stared at his brother thoughtfully. In all the years they’d argued over Summer, Falcon had never given him an ultimatum before.

  “We’re always having words where Summer’s concerned,” he finally pointed out, knowing even as he said it, it was a mistake. “What would make this time any different?”

  “This time, I doubt I would forgive you. Especially if she’s hurt because of it.” Falcon flicked him a determined look as they turned into the drive leading to the beach house. “And I will definitely not forgive you should anything happen to her because of your animosity toward her.”

  And that, Raeg knew, Falcon wouldn’t threaten lightly.

  The fact that Raeg was going to eventually lose the woman was a definite, but he never considered losing his brother as well.

  Dammit.

  Now things were just going to get complicated.

  “And if something happens to her because we are trying to protect her?” he asked his brother. “What will we do then?”

  Falcon shook his head. “As far as we kn
ow, the past is dead.”

  “The past never really dies, Falcon,” he sighed heavily. “Only its victims. Let’s try to keep that in mind until we at least have Dragovich taken care of.”

  Then, maybe, he could ensure Falcon at least stayed with her, if that was what he decided to do. Raeg couldn’t discount the possibility. If he simply played the third, hid his own ever deepening hunger, his own need for more, maybe, he could protect his brother and the woman both of them ached so desperately for.

  * * *

  Dammit.

  Now how had Falcon managed to find her?

  Summer stepped into the private beach house before throwing a glare back at the white curtains billowing in the breeze and blowing through the open French doors.

  He should have never found her so quickly. Hell, he shouldn’t have even been looking for her after the last run-in she’d had with him.

  Evidently Esteban de la Cortez Falcone, or “Falcon” as most who knew him, called him, was far more stubborn than she’d believed him to be.

  But five months?

  Really?

  After four months he should have given up. Especially after believing she’d committed the unpardonable sin of chopping off all her hair to only a few inches in length. He’d always sworn he’d never forgive her for that.

  Not that she would ever dare cut more than just the ends of her hair. Her family would just disown her, she was sure, if she did such a thing. Besides, she loved her hair. There wasn’t a chance she’d willingly mutilate it in such a way.

  Making Falcon believe she had, then running, would be enough to convince him to just go home and give up. She was certain of it.

  She’d obviously forgotten how stubborn he could be. That was her bad. Now, she’d simply have to deal with it. And if she knew Falcon, she might just have enough time to get dressed.

  Maybe.

  She’d make certain to throw his little system into overdrive and just wear the nightie if she hadn’t glimpsed someone in the vehicle with him. God only knew who he was working with now, and flashing an unknown male wasn’t her favored sport.